What's Wrong with Me!!!

Is being the longest ever since i last updated...
Cos i suddenly felt so lonely...
What's wrong with me...

I saw Lew Lew today @ raffles city food court... but i knew i already let go everything cos is a different feeling...
Is 11.49pm now, but he's not online... just felt disappointed :( though i just chatted with him this noon..
He is going back home this weekend, i'm gonna be lonely again...

i don't wanna fall into another trap again... i'm already sensing that i'm falling abit daily.
i told kani i will set a dateline by end May. If nothing really happen, i will tell him off to draw a clear line on the frenship, i dun wan another case 3 yrs back. I always believe there is no pure frenship between 2 sexes. At least not just 2 person alone... What if he find a gf by than, how am i going to adapt the habit of talking to him daily.... Shit!!!!!!!!! Can all guys dun always find companion... Do i look so companion....... :(

Anyway, he just broke off too. Hope once he is back, he will start a fresh new person..And i will not need to spend time healing him.

I miss his gd nite today....

Can anyone tell me what's wrong with me...